The uknown road. |
Hey!I'm Brooklynne a transwoman in her early thirties who woke up in late 2013 to find herself without a career, and in the last days of a 4 year marriage and 10 year relationship. The end of these also brought the end of some big dreams. I am left with, no dreams, no career, and alone. I was scared, terrified in fact. Where to now? How can I continue without my husband and my Dreams to drive me forward?
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Somewhere in the midst of my husband telling me he just couldn't go forward anymore and crying not believing it I had a life changing thought. I was staring in the mirror looking at the wrinkles that weren't there yesterday, and said something I didn't even realise I actually believed. "Of course he doesn't love me, I don't love me." The phrase bounced back at me and reverberated in my brain. I don't love me. I really didn't, and that was sad. While there was nothing that could fix my marriage, I knew that this was the key to fixing my life. How could I expect anyone out there to like me, or love me when I couldn't do it myself.
Journey to Love
That got me doing research, and looking around and I found blogs, books and podcasts. Obviously I wasn't the only one who struggled with what I thought should be an easy task. This both saddened me and gave me hope. I wasn't defected someway, society grinds us all down with negative emotions. The more I looked the more I saw, friends who I though were amazing, put together, and inspirations to me; fought with this problem too. I wasn't alone. I decided then and there I would get on the road to loving myself. I would become my new life partner, and own cheerleader. A journey that would make the world my own. This blog is part of my journey and I hope that maybe if you are out there suffering from the same issues you will find something here to help you.